MY LIFE
16082004(Thu)Mood...Happy

Ha-ha so long NV writes Liao. Past few weeks busy with NCC and Study so do not have the time to write. Ha-ha. Today very happy. Last paper Liao. So after my paper. Went jamming again at 11+, at last we can play "if I could fly" first part ha-ha, after jamming went back to school at about 1320 for NCC PTI COURSE again. Tired. Because two days ago on 14082004 just had the PTI COURSE first day, today 2nd day then my body haven recovers still in pain. Then just. After course went back home at about 1730. Took a bath eat my dinner and went back take short nap 1830 online again. Chat. Until 2000+ Bernard call me ask me go amk central to accompany him go eat dinner so went KFC. Ar! Reach there then I found out I NV offline, nvm. After his dinner went back home chat again. 2300+ offline. Went back room watch TV. 0000+ then sleep. End


No fear, no pain
Nobody left to blame
I'll try alone
Make destiny my own
I learn to free my mind
Myself I now must find
Once more
Once more

If I could fly
Like the king of the sky
Could not tumble nor fall
I would picture it allIf I could fly
See the world through my eyes
Would not stumble nor fail
To the heavens I sail
If I could fly

So here I am
In solitude I stand
I've got dreams inside
I need to realize
My faith has grown
No fear of the unknown
No more
No more

If I could fly
Like the king of the sky
Could not tumble nor fall
I would picture it all
If I could fly
See the world through my eyes
Would not stumble nor fail
I could ravage my jail
If I could fly



Blood has shed on 9/17/2004 07:29:00 AM by W L Lau (Kenny)

MY LIFE
11082004(Sun) Mood... Boring

Wake up at about 0845. Same old thing chat, actually planning to go jamming but at the end Jason cannot go so all NV go Liao, whole morning so boring. Went to take a nap. At about 1430, u lok call me ask me go central walk haha, meet them at S11 then after their lunch go Zone X play walk around central, really got nothing to do then went to have our dinner over at KFC. Haha Daniel goes and asks HP number from other schoolgirls. Haha the funniest part, after he asks, those girls went out of KFC. haha after that go play pool. After the game went home chat. 2330 like that offline Liao. Sweet dream


Blood has shed on 8/12/2004 08:48:00 PM by W L Lau (Kenny)

MY LIFE
10082004(Sun) Mood... ok

Wake up at about 0900. Same thing went to on computer and chat all whole morning, at about 1245 Daniel came to my house follow by Jason tan. Haha I take my bloody own sweet time to bath and change. We are meeting the rest at AMK MRT going to buy birthday present for our friend. Meet them 1315 at MRT. 1315 I just bath finish. Then slowly walk to AMK mrt. Haha lucky we not the last to reach. Yong meng last one. Haha, All the part K was shock when we reach AMK mrt cause someone going with us also. Haha everyone like anti that someone. Haha

Went to orchard walk lor. Nothing much happen. After that went to bishan to have our dinner. Walk back to AMK with yong meng and Daniel. Haha we like keep on running and shouting at each other like mad guys all the way back to AMK like army training. Haha take cover all this Lar lots of craps. Haha dame childish and fun. Reach home at about 2030 I think chat again, at about 2330 offline and sleep Liao.




Blood has shed on 8/12/2004 08:30:00 PM by W L Lau (Kenny)

MY LIFE
09082004(Mon) Mood... weak and sick, happy.

Wake up at about 0700, SHIT!!! Late, I am suppose to reach AMK MRT at 0645, Jason call me, asking me whether coming a not, thinking that I am still feeling unwell so I don’t really feel like going but today is the last training and last show so decide to give a last push. Get myself ready fast and ran all the way to AMK sec, afraid that I might not catch up with them cause I am late. Luckily, the bus was still there. Tired.

So, training starts Liao. Under the hot sun pratice all those steps. Feel dame uneasy but have to give a last push, last day Liao. Saw a Hongang NPCC sec girl quite nice haha. But too weak and tired to go and find out about her, so use those rest time to sleep.

1745 getting ready NDP 2004 went in and stands by. When our music came, haha moral so high, all of us shout and run out. Haha, I did two major mistakes! Haha. When people stand up I went to push up position when people recover Liao I still stay down there. Don’t know why so blur. Anyway last day Liao.

After everything went back home, 2100 go back school for duty; about 0000 reach home wash up and sleep. haha



Blood has shed on 8/12/2004 05:44:00 PM by W L Lau (Kenny)

MY LIFE
08082004(Sun) Mood... weak and sick, feeling uneasy

Wake up at about 0900, changing my blog. Hope this new one is betters then the past one. Until 12+ Daniel came to my house to use my COM to do the DNT Project, at about 1400, Daniel, Jason and me, went to the AMK MRT bus stop to meet up with the others. Going to u lok house. Ha Terence late again, but he told me before hand ar. reach u lok house at about 1500. I feel so tired and so I lie on his bed and take a nap. When they wanted to go back to amk to meet the other and go city hall watch firework, they wake me up, my whole body feel so hot and uneasy. I have no strength at all. Went back to amk central S11 to have our dinner. I dont feel like eating. I think I am really sick this time. My entire friend was worry about me, looking at me like that. They went to get panadol for me and get drink for me and ask me to go home rest cause the next day I still got training for NDP, feel so weak but at the same time happy too cause my friend care for me, but at the end still went to city with them. On the way there they keep on asking me, "You ok a not" "can a not".

After watching the fireworks, go walk with them. My fever seen to go down Liao, but still I feel so weak. I wanted to stay with them until they wanted to go home but I am too weak for that so I went back home first. Reach home at about 2300 went to take a bath and update my blog and went back to sleep. Hope tmr I will recover.

Looking at those photos,
Thinking of you,
Thinking of those time,
I spent with you,
I miss them and I miss you,
Since the moment you say you found your true love,
I found myself not the one,
I use to be,
I felt so lose and confuse,
I don’t know what to do,
I guess all I can do now,
Is just congratulate you.

So now the smile on me,
I wear it everyday,
Taking it off only when,
I am alone in my room at night,
Then I let everything out,
The tears from my eyes,
Wet my pillow I lie on,
Until I fall asleep,
Dream of you,
With another guy you love,
I am alone on my own,
Looking at you getting far away from me.

I hope I could just stop,
Wearing that fake smile,
So people can realize,
My suffering isn't over,
It really hurts a lot,
Deep inside my heart,
Whenever I think about you,
All of the sudden,
I will feel sad,
You are the only one,
With the only key,
To my heart to change,
Change back who I used to be.

My life without you,
Has been so unbearable to live,
And I hate every second I breathe,
Because it just proves,
I can live without you,
Every tear that had falls,
Make me lost trust in everything,
All this prove that,
How much I need you,
How much I need you,
How can I find back the hopes?
Hope there is still hopes.


Blood has shed on 8/08/2004 11:12:00 PM by W L Lau (Kenny)

My Life
03082004(Sat) Mood... ok quite cheerful

wake up at about 0930. haha. no training today, for the next few days to next week wed might be holiday for, no school, no training. haha, DNT N lever project also finish. no stress now but N lever coming, past few day, cause of DNT no time to update blog, now DNT finish liao. haha.

Terence came to my house at anout 1000 to do his FN project. mrs lim call his mum last night again so he have to rush the project by today 1145. but still cant finish on time so at about 1230 then go school hand in. Thought mrs lim will scold him. haha luckly nv. after that went to central to have a walk. went to S11 to have my lunch after that went home sleep. haha dono y nowadays love to sleep.

wake up at about 1900. Back to my com again, chat the whole night. light off at about 0100.

Leadership
Some words for the Part C and others who want to know about leadership.

Remember what I say. A true leader is someone who can train his man up to a leader who is even better then him. I don’t know whether u all agree a not, maybe u all may think that I talking crap but still I agree and believe in it. People always think that in NCC is just shouting or doing all those tough thing or even if u are the seniors, u are just there to so call play you’re junior and make them suffer. But after in NCC so long, I found that NCC is not all this, if u look deeper into it, NCC is all about leadership, loyalty, teamwork, discipline, commitment, responsibility. NCC have make me try lots of thing that others cannot try for example building up a unit in school, training man up to be a leader, going Brunei for jungle training. Part c remembers in order to do well in the future. U must have pride in NCC in what you do in NCC. Must have the honour in NCC too. Like what I say NCC is about discipline, have it inside you and show it so that the junior will respect you. You all may wondering who the true leader is, you all may have make some guess or maybe even don’t care but still have to say to let u know. The true leader is you all, the part c, you all may ask why, the ans is because so far no spec have take you all for training, is you all, the part C yourself take your own training and train you yourself up, is you all who wanted to pull the standard up to the next level you yourself train yourself up to the next higher level. The true leader is you all and not others, another thing, never ever fight with your own platoon no matter what tell yourself your platoon mate is the one who suffer with you in that bloody 4 years so your platoon mate should be closer to you then your friend in class, anything unhappy make sure you go and talk to him nicely. End

PART C
Always stay tight together all 21 of you
and stay strong and never fall apart
No matter what happen

your crap platoon Sgt SSG KENNY
END




Blood has shed on 8/07/2004 09:51:00 AM by W L Lau (Kenny)

MY LIFE
03082004(Tue) Mood ... very tired

Wake up by my brother again at 0610. So tired don't feel like getting up from the bed, I only sleep for 3 hours but no choice still have to get up and wash out and update my blog. Went to school at about 0645. Canteen again, sit there do nothing. Haven does DNT yet. But no have the strength to do it. The whole morning is like the same lor. Boring life, Shawn birthday today, 1 week detention have reduce to 2 days Liao lucky. DNT project due date have also change to Friday Liao lucky again. After school go NCC lor.

Part C unhappy with each other again. At the end scold them in that bloody hall. No choice have to, hate to see my part like this, the moral so low. Stress, have to do something.

1700 return home check mail and chat with my friend. 1750 go out again to meet my friend to go somewhere. Came back at about 2100. Back to my COM chat chat. Tmr will be a hard day I am sure, so much problem coming against me tmr. I am ready for anything Lar. *sweet dream*


I'm not a perfect person
As many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

The reason by Hoobastank


Blood has shed on 8/03/2004 09:29:00 PM by W L Lau (Kenny)

MY LIFE
02082004(Mon) Mood sian

Wake up by my brother at 0610. Morning rain, so cold. Get myself ready. And walk to school, leave my house at 0630 reach school at about 0635, same old thing went to the canteen and wait for the rest to come. Nothing much happen in the morning. School start, all went back to class. Today PE was fun, went to play over at the school netball court under the rain. Haha so cold. After PE went back to class for PHY lesson, got back our test paper, ha I fail 7/25. Today was like so fun that no one care to listen to the rest of the lesson after PE. So today the whole day learn nothing. Keep on talking crap in class, if not walk around the class. Fu zhu and Mok fight in class today because of a comb, so funny thought that fu zhu want to beat up mok, so I went to push him back and cool him down, at the end kana scold by him, haha saying that he want to go back to his sit and not beat up mok, haha I act smart, so funny nvm forget it, let him scold lor who call me so busybody ha.

After school, there is an English lesson at 1415, but all plan not to go for the class cause me,
u lok, Terence, Daniel and Rajiv wanted to go for jamming for 1 hour. First time going with them, learn to play the keyboard, hard to get it right, haha can see that I am not talent in this thing, but fun ar. After that went back to school. The lesson still haven end then the teacher saw us ask us to go in. sit there for 5 mins, 1615 come out Liao. While coming out of the classroom, so unlucky saw MDM Norpipah, asking us why so late then come, at the end got scolded from her and kana 1 week detention sia. Sian Sian sain. After that went to 424 sit and talk lor, at about 1700+ go home, reach home nearly 1800 Liao.

Get myself a hot bath, and then do my DNT Liao. Tmr have to pass up, still got a lot more to do, tonight don’t need sleep Liao. At around 2000 went all the way to Kelvin house to get his DNT file so that I can do. it took me about 45 mins to come back home. By the time I come back house is about 2100 Liao. Do my DNT again. Shawn came to my house at about 2200. To do his project too. Let him use the COM. and then he went back home again, haha forget to bring something. Meanwhile he went out. I really very tired doing that DNT. Went to make a make up. And ask my brother to help me take some photo. haha look cool and funny too. After that want to wash away those make up that I have make, keep on rubbing my face, rub until so pain then so face red, pain lol.after cleaning up all the thing went back to my DNT again then Shawn also came back liao. Do the DNT until 0230 sia. Still got lot more to do sia. But very tired. Both of us went back to the room play WC 3 haha. At about 0300 I sleep Liao. Tired! but still haven finish DNT End



Saying that loving u, not matter what happen,
No matter who you love, no matter how bad u are,
No matter how hard u hurt me, as long as u are happy,
I will be happy too cause I just want to see you happy,
IS ALL FAKE, who the hell in this world
don't want the one they love,
To stay by their side, hold them and never let go,
It is just another reason make up to cover the ture, and
it really hurt a lots,
A lot, and I know you won't care, cause
I am just another fool to you.


Blood has shed on 8/02/2004 05:40:00 PM by W L Lau (Kenny)

MY LIFE
01082004(Sun) Mood Boring

Wake up at about 0930, had a fast wash up, had a cup of hot Milo and went to on my computer to check my mail, to see anyone online. Looking at the date, remind me that today is a important day, yah, today is the change of guards of istana, but cant remember the time of the parade, I so blur haha. No choice, I miss two parades already. The June one and the July one ... cause of Brunei trip and NCC day parade. Haha. So went to check and find friends to accompany me go. Haha. But at this time all haven wake up.lol. At about 10+ some of my NCC cadets online Liao, went to ask them. Haha lucky they wanted to go with me. Thought that this month I have to go alone Liao. The whole morning was so boring ... no one to chat with. So went to take my bag take my Dnt project out and do, 2 more days to hand up...but until one part I dont know how to do. Lazy to go and find out. Go ask my friend, he also dont know, 4 get it dont do Liao. Think I better ask Kelvin to lend me his file then I do. It seen that Monday night cannot sleep Liao ... must do the bloody N level dnt project.

At the afternoon Then yong meng call me ask me to go his house to help him in his computer, saying that his computer got problem ... so I went lor. At the end no problem Liao cause his sister help to fix Liao wah. Haha went back home at about 12+ look at my com. wah so many people offline Liao. All go out Liao ... haha. Look at the COM doing nothing clicks here and there. Until 1300+. . So boring .the time go so slow 1630 is still so far away. No choice, went to sleep again. Rain sia so cold ... about 1500 wake up Liao the rain stop Liao... then just found out that I miss my lunch haha nvm anyway dont feel like eating. Went back to my COM haha ... still no people online. . So wait lor wait wait until 1630.. and then jason and min chin came to my house liao.

then we went to AMK mrt wait for terence and bernard... haha terence late again... meet him1715 , he 1735 then came haha. went to istana watch the parade after that went to PS walk aroung and shop and have our dinner over there after that went back home.

Reach home about nearly 2200. Back to my COM again, all my friend come ask me about the DNT project haha but i dont know haha. At 2300, offline liao .. went to watch GTO after the show, feel so tired... then sweet dream.



Walking down the lonely street,
Looking at the moon high above me,
Your face always appears in my mind every mins,
Trying to forget, forget about you,
But the more I want to forget the more I think about you,
Always wanted to be with you,
But it seen that you have already found someone you love,
Who love you too, the cut u gives me hurts a lot,
But as long u are happy, no matter how pain it is,
I will still take it, cause all I want for you is just...
Happiness


Blood has shed on 8/01/2004 03:30:00 PM by W L Lau (Kenny)